Yet another look

Before you read this, take note. Some might consider this a little LONG and BORING, but I guess I am just in one of those moods. I warned you.

I greet everybody who makes the time to read this otherwise dull entry of my life.

How I greet you I leave totally up to you. You could make it seem like a great joyous “Hi!” as I saw you from afar, making it a point to talk to you. Or if you are thinking on the pessimistic side, or if you are having a day you would rather pass you by, you could make it seem as if I was mumbling a “hey” with my head down as I walked pass you. It is totally up to you. Don’t you like being able to make your own choices?

That was interesting. Now for something completely different. (you should know what that is from.)

That is a break from what I normally type. Not because I am lazy or something, I am just thinking tonight that my life is not totally interesting. I do not have a job, so I cannot give you any interesting stories about people who are slightly deranged. I am not really deep into hobbies at the moment, so I cannot completely bore you with something you have no interest in. My social life is laughable. I have no tales to tell you from hilarious situations with other people with whom I choose to spend my time.

So now that a semester of school has passed, what do I think about it? Collage. Ages ranging from 16 to 52. Do not take me wrong, I have no issues with mixing it up in the age range. I have been doing that since I was in sixth grade. It is the fact that I am going to be out of my comfort zone. Yes, it is a human attribute, to have any type of unease in an unfamiliar situation and/or atmosphere. And yes, I am one to adjust to different situations. That is one advantage to moving every couple years. You have to learn to adjust quickly. Yes, you could choose not to do so, but what would be the point? You would probably choose not to have a life where you are lonely, with no companionship. We are Humans, God has made us to according to a specific plan. We are meant to socialize. With some of us it comes with the utmost of ease. Others need to be dragged around by other people. It goes back to comfort zones. We would probably rather have people come up to us. That does not require us to step out of our zone, putting ourselves in an unaccustomed situation.

That said, I have always been up to the challenge. Yes it is easier here, typing on a keyboard. One is able to think, at his own pace, not having the pressure of keeping a conversation flowing. You can present yourself however you like. The lack of a visual and auditory point of reference makes one feel more at ease. Encountering the world at large is a different issue. We normally take on a public persona. Being with others we know helps put that at ease. You have somebody to put your focus on. You still have the nagging thoughts that you are in the world, putting the pressure of trying to impress, or just blend in, on yourself.

Sorry for the sudden stop, but I realize that I have the choice of letting my emotions determine my moods. I should have more control then that. Alas I have my work cut out for me. I should not have put you through that. I was just thinking, and letting my fingers do the expressing.